My phone interview with Nicole Scherzinger started out on the rocks.
“Can you return the call? I’m not doing it right now,” I over heard Nicole tell her assistant before hanging up.
I called back several minutes later.
“Hi Jordan,” she said quietly. I was surprised she took the call – I asked if everything was ok.
“Yes. Just… a lot going on.”
She sounded exhausted. I asked if she was stressed from all the promotion during her time in Europe right now.
“Yeah, it’s definitely been a lot to take in.”
Is it too much?
“No, no, it’s not too much. It’s just sometimes when your schedule is so busy you don’t realize the sacrifices you have to make. You just don’t have time for a personal life. That’s what kind of gets, makes me…” she pauses. “That’s what adds more stress. As far as work… I love work.”
Are you referring to your boyfriend?
“I think all your relationships with your family, your friends, your loved ones suffer because you don’t have as much time to give to those relationships. Everything in general.”
Do you regret working so much?
“No, because I believe in what I do. It’s productive and creative. It’s just hard to juggle and balance the two.”
It’s understandable her personal life takes a backseat to her career right now. She’s busy performing, preparing her role in “Cats” and promoting her new album “Big Fat Lie.” The interview hadn’t gone as planned so far, but the best ones don’t. I changed gears.
Why the album title “Big Fat Lie?”
“They’re so many things people battle with. Everybody has issues that people battle with – not feeling like they’re pretty, not feeling like they’re worth it. It’s breaking through all those lies that we tell ourselves that hold us back. The truth is you ARE enough, you CAN do it, you ARE worthy, you SHOULD go for that job you want, you SHOULD dream up the relationship you want, you SHOULD be the person you want to be.”
Why do people lie to themselves?
“Because they’re afraid. It’s all fear. Maybe they’re afraid of failing, or afraid of not being great; not being any better than what they think they are.”
Nicole’s dealt with those lies earlier in her career when she lead the Pussycat Dolls, but after leaving the group to focus on her solo career, she’s had time to change and grow into womanhood.
“There are a lot of misconceptions about me. I’m not gonna lie. A lot of people think I’m very manufactured, I can’t sing, I’m just a pretty face, that I have this glamorous life that I haven’t worked for, that it’s all just a big walk in the park. They don’t know they’re struggles behind it. I have my own insecurities, my own struggles about things that I have to deal with. I see myself in a different way.”
The way Nicole views herself is evident on her new album – many of the songs are personal to her because it deals with her life, her encounters and past intimate relationships.
“All of the songs are about a relationship that I’ve had at one point in my life. I went through a breakup last year as well. I was doing the album when I was broken up as well. They’re all from a truthful place.”
Probably the most personal song on the album is “Run,” the first US single and third for the UK. She says she’s shooting the music video today.
She’d like “Electric Blue” with T.I. as the next US release, but she had a lot to choose from.
“I’ve never left the studio. I’ve always been doing music. That’s what you’re supposed to do as an artist. I’m always writing and working on music. I find it very therapeutic and a cathartic experience. I’ve worked with a lot of writers and producers in the past, but for this album the Dream and Tricky (Stewart) came back into my life at the right time. We created a sound for me. My own sound that doesn’t sound like predictable pop. We have songs like ‘Bang,’ or ‘Heartbreaker,’ or ‘Electric Blue.’ They’re a lot different sounding than the expected pop out there right now. I wanted to have the album be cohesive. Instead of taking random pieces that were written at random different times in my life from different people and different sounds and different energies, I put those aside and did this album with them. They helped me to find my sound, and I think that’s really important.”
“Big Fat Lie” is a “transitional, transformational, revelational (sic) album. By revealing those [lies] you’re hopefully able to heal from them.”
All lies aside, Nicole credits her growth and success to the people who believe in and follow her.
“That’s all you really need, right?”
“Having that fanbase and grow from there. You can’t judge it by radio play, streaming or charts. What’s real to me as an artist is being on stage and seeing the people, and have them care enough to buy a ticket and want to see me perform.”
The interview’s approaching 15 minutes, and I feel it’s time to wrap it up.
Leave me with a few words for your fans:
“I love them. I know they’ve been waiting so long for the music and it’s from my heart. It’s honest. I hope they can relate to it. Sometimes I struggle with feeling like I’m alone and no one cares. All those things we all battle. Sometimes we just need to know that we’re not alone, and that someone does care. Hopefully they can connect in their own way.”
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— BreatheHeavy.com (@breatheheavycom) October 17, 2014