Taylor Swift feels happier then ever, but she sounds kind of paranoid. Who's keeping score, anyway?
In her recent interview with Rolling Stone, Swift says she doesn't understand all the ways people could get information about her and sell it. So she hired someone whose purpose is to make sure her life remains under wraps - as much as she wants it to be.
Happiness: ⃠, Paranoid: ⃠
"Don't even get me started on wiretaps. It's not a good thing for me to talk about socially. I freak out." As for who might bug a Van Nuys production office on the off chance that Swift is inside: "The janitor who's being paid by TMZ. This is gonna sound like I'm a crazy person – but we don't even know. I have to stop myself from thinking about how many aspects of technology I don't understand."
She then apparently recognizes how odd that sounds, shrugs it off because that's her real life, and continues.
"Like speakers," she says. "Speakers put sound out . . . so can't they take sound in? Or" – she holds up her cellphone – "they can turn this on, right? I'm just saying. We don't even know."
"There's someone whose entire job it is to figure out things that I don't want the world to see," she continues. "They look at your career, they look at what you prioritize, and they try to figure out what would be the most revealing or hurtful. Like, I don't take my clothes off in pictures or anything – I'm very private about that. So it scares me how valuable it would be to get a video of me changing. It's sad to have to look for cameras in dressing rooms and bathrooms. I don't walk around naked with my windows open, because there's a value on that."
Happiness: ⃠, Paranoid: I
Two breaths later, Swift proclaims she's in a really great place after moving to New York City (which she labeled "intimidating").
"I really like my life right now," she says. "I have friends around me all the time. I've started painting more. I've been working out a lot. I've started to really take pride in being strong. I love the album I made. I love that I moved to New York. So in terms of being happy, I've never been closer to that."
Happiness: I, Paranoid: I
So happy, she feels like she can't date anyone new because of how sensationalized her personal life has become.
"I feel like watching my dating life has become a bit of a national pastime," Swift says. "And I'm just not comfortable providing that kind of entertainment anymore. I don't like seeing slide shows of guys I've apparently dated. I don't like giving comedians the opportunity to make jokes about me at awards shows. I don't like it when headlines read 'Careful, Bro, She'll Write a Song About You,' because it trivializes my work. And most of all, I don't like how all these factors add up to build the pressure so high in a new relationship that it gets snuffed out before it even has a chance to start. And so," she says, "I just don't date."
Happiness: I, Paranoid: II
However, Swift's embracing her womanhood and calls herself a feminism.
"When your number-one priority is getting a boyfriend, you're more inclined to see a beautiful girl and think, 'Oh, she's gonna get that hot guy I wish I was dating,'" she says. "But when you're not boyfriend-shopping, you're able to step back and see other girls who are killing it and think, 'God, I want to be around her.'" As an example, she cites her pal Lorde, whom she calls Ella. "It's like this blazing bonfire," Swift says. "You can either be afraid of it because it's so powerful and strong, or you can go stand near it, because it's fun and it makes you brighter."
Happiness: II, Paranoid: II
But then she recants a time she visited an emergency room after her and an ex (she wouldn't specifically name who) crashed a snowmobile they rode on together. Swift was shocked it didn't end up on the Internet.
"You know what I've found works even better than an NDA?" says Swift. "Looking someone in the eye and saying, 'Please don't tell anyone about this.'"
Happiness: II, Paranoid: III
Taylor Swift knows in the end, her life is in her hands, so when something negative comes her way? She shakes it off.
"People think they know the whole narrative of my life," she says. "I think maybe that line is there to remind people that there are really big things they don't know about."
Happiness: III, Paranoid: III