Miley Cyrus Says Hannah Montana Gave Her Body Image Issues

She’s just being Miley.

Fame has its share of perks – worldwide adoration, money, power and influence. It also comes with its downfalls, like lack of privacy, over-saturation and a heightened sense of insecurity. Cyrus knows all too well what that means, starring as Hannah Montana as a kid and growing up in the spotlight as one of Disney’s most beloved stars. People love watching the journey of starlets from adolesnce into adulthood, and Cyrus has one of the most famous evolutions to date. This month, the “Bangerz” singer covers Marie Clarie magazine, and she says growing up under that microscope forced her to look in the mirror at an early age and become something she wasn’t.

“From the time I was 11, it was,” she says, “‘You’re a pop star! That means you have to be blonde, and you have to have long hair, and you have to put on some glittery tight thing.’ Meanwhile, I’m this fragile little girl playing a 16-year-old in a wig and a ton of makeup. It was like Toddlers & Tiaras. I had fucking flippers.”

“I was told for so long what a girl is supposed to be from being on that show. I was made to look like someone that I wasn’t, which probably caused some body dysmorphia because I had been made pretty every day for so long, and then when I wasn’t on that show, it was like, Who the fuck am I?”

She adds, “every morning, I was getting coffee jammed down my throat to wake me up. I just had to keep going, be tough, be strong. Everything happened to me on that set.”

These high pressure situations and skipping over childhood lead to her having anxiety issues.

“I would have anxiety attacks. I’d get hot flashes, feel like I was about to pass up or throw up. It would happen a lot before shows, and I’d have to cancel. Then the anxiety started coming from anxiety. I would be with my friends, thinking, I should be having so much fun. You get in this hole that seems like you’re never going to be able to get out of.”

This forced her to evaluate her life, and quickly she realized the fame and fortune that tries putting men and women into a perfect light is bullshit.

“When you look at retouched, perfect photos, you feel like shit. They lighten black girls’ skin. They smooth out wrinkles. Even when I get stuck on Instagram wondering, Why don’t I look like that? It’s a total bummer. It’s crazy what people have decided we’re all supposed to be.”

Who is Cyrus supposed to be?

“I’m probably never going to be the face of a traditional beauty company unless they want a weed-smoking, liberal-ass freak. But my dream was never to sell lip gloss. My dream is to save the world.”

She also adds she’s friends with Caitlyn Jenner, saying “We’ve talked a lot about how you can never make every single person happy. We always laugh about people saying she transitioned to be famous. Which is crazy. Caitlyn has to tell her story, because if she doesn’t, everyone else is going to tell it for her.”