“I lived fast and I was going to die young.”
We're all too familiar with the childhood stars who are thrust into the spotlight at an early age and are forced to grow through adolencese in the public eye. There's the capacity for it to end poorly, and Demi Lovato is convinced she would end up as another Hollywood tall tale.
In the new issue of American Way magazine, Lovato opens up about her journey to sobriety, which included a stint in rehab to treat bulimia and bipolar disorder, and how that reflects who she is now to young girls.
“I didn’t go into treatment thinking, ‘OK, now I’m going to be an inspiration,’ ” Lovato says. “At times I was resentful for having that kind of responsibility, but now, it’s really become a part of my life. It holds me accountable.”
The mag mentions she began experimenting with alcohol, cocaine and OxyContin.
“I lived fast and I was going to die young,” she replied when asked whether she thought she’d be alive at 40. “I didn’t think I would make it to 21.”
She adds of her rehab experience: “I thought, ‘I’m not in treatment for a drug and alcohol problem,’ ” she says. “But once I started eating again, the other issues got worse. It was like whack-a-mole.” To get clean, she checked into a West Hollywood sober house and remained about a year.
“So now I’m in rehab,” Lovato remembers, “and I thought, ‘Oh great, now the world thinks I’m just another stereotype.’ ”
Lovato is several years sober now and whether she likes it or not, is a real inspiration.
“The more you talk about mental illness, the less of a taboo it becomes,” Lovato says. “As a pop star, I can say, ‘Hey, I’ve got bipolar disorder — it’s nothing that anyone can be ashamed of.’ ”
Read the full interview here.