Lana Del Rey cant decide if she likes being famous or not. On the one hand, her music gets exposure and infiltrates the lives of millions. On the other, she's faced with the pressure of super stardom and a plethora of unavoidable questions.
Everything seemed to be going fine during her sit down with Rolling Stone. That is, until she tried canceling it.
"I'm not sure if they should run this story," she said. "I feel like maybe we should wait until there's something good to talk about. You know? I just wish you could write about something else. There has to be someone else to be the cover story. Like, there has to be. Anybody."
But before things escalated to that, Lana spoke her mind during some down time at the Greenwich Village townhouse in Italy owned by her apparent new love interest, Italian photographer Francesco Carrozzini.
On her state of mind: "Well, I feel fucking crazy," she says. "But I don't think I am. People make me feel crazy." She blames her much-publicized "I wish I were dead" quotes on leading questions, but adds, "I find that most people I meet figure I kind of want to kill myself anyway. So, it comes up every time."
On how she wants people to hear lyrics like "he hurt me and it felt like true love": "I just don't want them to hear it at all," she says. "I'm very selfish. I make everything for me, kind of. I mean, every little thing, down to the guitar and the drums. It's just for me… I don't want them to hear it and think about it. It's none of their business!"
On her Saturday Night Live performance: "It wasn't dynamic, but it was true to form," she says, though former Interscope Records head Jimmy Iovine reveals that he worked with her afterwards on the use of in-ear monitors. She says people close to her pulled away: "Everyone I knew suddenly wasn't so sure about me," she says. "They were like, 'Maybe I don't want to be associated with her – not a great reputation.'"
Lana's full Rolling Stone issue is out this Friday.