Kelly Clarkson's first Grammy Awards was bittersweet.
Clarkson could barely make it through her acceptance speech for Best Female Vocal Performance at the 2006 Grammys, but it's not solely because of the honorable accomplishment. In a new interview on Billboard‘s Pop Shop podcast, Clarkson said doctors informed her the morning of they found cancer in her body.
“Well, not many people know this — not to be a Debbie Downer — but I was told that morning that I had cancerous results for something,” she said. “Here’s the horrible part: I went the whole day crying. They redid my makeup, like, four times because I was like, ‘Wow, so young.’ I was just completely freaking out. Then when I won, I thought, ‘Oh, my God. This is like God giving me one more thing before something horrible happens.’”
The next day, Clarkson said doctors told her there was a mixup in the results and that she did not have cancer.
“I was like, ‘You completely ruined my entire [experience],’” she continued. “The first time for an artist … as a kid watching the Grammys, that was a big dream! It was kind of the worst/greatest day. And the next day was also the worst/greatest day because I wanted to punch someone. I was like, ‘Who mixes up results? Why wouldn’t you test again?’ It was very much a roller coaster ride, that day, for me. So, it’s kind of unfortunate, but a lot of the moments got stolen from that mishap. But hey, I didn’t have cancer!”
At the 2017 Grammys, Clarkson is nominated for Best Pop Solo Performance for “Piece by Piece (Idol Version),” up against Beyoncé (“Hold Up”), Adele (“Hello”), Justin Bieber (“Love Yourself”) and Ariana Grande (“Dangerous Woman”).